Hey Bloggy

What i'm going to say now is.. i believe in god... i do and i am grateful to them...

After praying yesterday for success and to let me see his true colors.. the results are out... he is really lying to me... and he admits in after hours of conversation... i am so disappointed... well.. what did i do? I chanced upon his msn and that Chanel added him in friendster.. well, that was normal isn't it? But a werid feeling told me to check her blog... looking through her blog dates, from 2007 to september 2008, i've confirmed...


So what did i do next? well that was a long thing.. he said he did not cheat me, just that he admit going out with her... so to prove that he did not, he say he would tell her to stop talking to him.. breaking friendship ties with her.. but i was not satisfied.. because he mentioned before that he did not talk to her anymore after my 'O' levels holiday work with him... but i check during march 2007 that they smsed each other happily... and he said sorry when i saw the sms... but who knows... he did it again for the next 2 months.. till september... he lied to me for so long..

I am so confused now.. fuck off all guys.. i don't need sympathy.. i am going to see what is going to happen tomorrow.. i had lost all trust on him.. totally.. i am going to have my revenge..

And i am typing it out here to let all to see how disgrateful is my boyfriend.. scold me as you want Xian.. cause i am going to leave a bad name to you.. until i forgive you... I am still deciding on giving up... don't test me.. cause what i know now is.. you are not afraid no matter what i say.. because of this Chanel girl.. i am not the woman i'm used to be... want to break or not i don't mind le.. i don't need you in my life le.. you're just a burden to me... seriously... men are burdens in my life...never mess with someone with mental conditions..