Hey bloggy~~ haii today so damn super sad and depressed...

This morning was not feeling well...had severe headache and flu...told my mum about it..but guess what she said...i do not know how to describe it but it's just so hurting... She said i'm making excuses of not going to school..mentioned me playing my psp late at night..but i did not even play last night...and i only play it on saturday and sunday...it's just that last night i really could not sleep well...i woke up at 5.30am this morning..not abling to sleep... i just laid there trying to sleep...and when i finally was able to sleep... it's already 6.30am... 15 mins more to my 'wake up' time...

Quarrelled with my mum over the excuses part...i can't believe why she always talk in a way that just make me think..'is she my mum??'

Then my dad was awaken by the tiff...he then scolded me and say i do not need to study anymore...should go and work....what the hell????

i was so pissed and when directly to bathe...not intending to finally go to school..but to get out of the house to cool off without letting them know...but make them think i was going to school..they just don't understand my feelings...i'm depressed...do they know?? NOOOO.. i'm stressed...do they know?? NOOO... i scored well for tests to make them happy and reward me...but did they?? NOOO... what's the use of doing those now...guess i'm just going to do it when i want to now...

What's more hurting is that..my mum after that said i studied badly...that's why i landed up in RP...but do i want to? i scored 16 okie...i'm just in the border line in between those schools...and they placed me in RP cause my appeal failed...goodness...she finally spoke from her heart..and she said all those good stuff of RP just to comfort me last time??? I DON'T NEED THAT~!!

After that went to honey's place and waited for me...he said he would end at 9am normally...but i waited and waited..but he did not on his phone and i send messages numerous time...waited till 10 plus..i was intending to leave already...going somewhere else alone...but his footsteps came..(boots' footsteps)..i was hoping that it was him coming down the stairs...and yar...is him..i was thrilled...almost cried cause i was really really depressed...

i think i really need a pet...i'm going to save money to buy one...ever since i stopped rearing my hamsters years ago..i get depressed so easily...

Hai okie lah bloggy..stop here...no mood to talk anymore.. don't know how my future would be ler..feel like moving out of the house...i'm so going to the university..so i can live in the hostel and do not have to face my parents...they just do not seem to care...