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Thursday, June 19, 2008 @ 10:45 PM

haiizz..=(

Hey bloggy~~ so sorry that i did not write to you yesterday...

Yesterday was too busy and tired to even on my laptop...Yesterday i could actually have a good night rest till afternoon..but have to wake up early to go to Tan Tock Seng hospital for my check up to scan my tummy...However when i got there..they say i was not allowed to consume any food before the scan...if i'm not wrong they did not inform me that..or did i heard wrongly? nevermind..anyway i could not do the scan...after that when to watch "KungFu Panda" with my younger brother and mother...suddenly missed honey so much...haiiz...after walking around in Plaza Singapura and watched the movie...when straight home and watched my korean drama..=p Haiz..sad thing is..i missed my Understanding Test on Tues and did not turn up for lesson for some stupid scan thing that ended up like nothing...

Today even worst..missed my Understanding Test for Computing and Mathematical Methods due to lateness again...haiiz..felt so damn demoralized..waited outside the class till 9.30am then entered the room..everyone seemed so...dead...i mean.. okie i don't feel my existence there anymore..frankly..i starting to hate the school...i don't know..something just demoralized me and frankly..is it my fault? i did not mean to not turn up for school..i did not mean to be late...just imagine 2 buses to take..one turn up late or i missed one bus...just one..i'll be confirmed late...many would just say..ohh just wake up earlier...hey..i woke up at 7am every morning and i'm still late...6.45am even...frankly it's the bus timing...i really do not mean to compare or offend anyone..but compared to Japan that i've been through just for 2 weeks...2 weeks...thier punctuality and our bus services really cannot beat thiers'...

Today just feel so unlucky..the Problem Statement today was so hard too...everyone did not have the mood to even do much too...let alone me...i was intending to just leave...but i've missed school for 2 days already..so..yar...just feel so damn sad..even on the way home...always go home alone...even my girl pals classmates..after walking with me to the interchange...i'm alone already...haiz...how am i going to live life like this for another 2 years? sob...so miss honey..if only he worked hard that time..maybe we would be in the same school now and going to school together...sob..but it's the past already...now...i trying my best to attend more IG events to kill the loneness...at least i get to serve people in my IG...ushering and stuff..missed last month's one due to my tour to Japan...my friends said just do ushering and stuff..actually it's isn't so bad right?? so ya..just keep signing up then..

Really don't know what's in my mind right now...just feel so sad and depressed...kind of afraid my depression state comes back again...been talking to my stuff toy eyore again...well..did talk to honey...but...he just blew me up today...damn sad...haii...just think about those messages again i want to cry...big blow..although i know he did not do it...but...1st impression always give the 1st thought isn't it..Thinking about it..still so damn angry with the Sentosa class outing last week...haiiz...don't talk about it ler...just feel so damn left out...missed secondary school days...really want to escape and feel relaxed for a year...ahhh~!!

Sorry bloggy for saying all this things to you today..but i'm still not feeling better yet...tomorrow i would talk to you more..=) So hope you could actually reply me and give me advices...hahas just kidding...i would freak out even if my eyore starts replying...please don't...XD

Okie nights bloggy~!! Bye~!!Oh~!! and i'm so gonna catch the movie "Ten Promises To My Dog"~!! BoA's "Be With You" theme song is in it~!! best is i could buy the dvd..=p